Woke Up Sober

The truth of the recent matter still has me feeling pretty reduced, but I got the truth. She cared enough to be honest. Her efforts to defend herself were, I suppose, to be expected, but they were frustrating. I reacted probably a lot more strongly than was necessary. But in the end, I feel like I deserved the entire truth, and she deserved to know what her actions will do to a person.

If anyone knows who I'm talking about, I'd like to make it known that I don't hate her, or think she's a horrible person. What she did hurt me deeply, and I hurt her right back. The score is hopefully settled, and I have my closure. I hope she finds something positive from our heated conversation and uses it to keep a genuine happiness.

Follow Up!

I got the truth I asked for and more! While we were seeing each other, she took a trip to NYC. While she was there, she visited the butthole that broke her heart before and "innocently enough" asked him "Sowhen are you gonna come back and marry me?". If it was so innocent, why is he now doing that? Why did she shit on me and go along with it? So I yelled at her and called her a dickhead and an asshole and a sonofabitch. Her response-"**** has never yelled at me or called me names!" Sure, she didn't offer her heart and the rest of her life to another dude while they were dating!

I feel like I was understandably furious. She told me I fight too dirty. Well, I just spoke the truth. Give me a weapon and ammo aplenty and tell me you betrayed me in about the worst way, I'm probably gonna use that weapon, and shoot from the hip. It's not my fault if every bullet finds a home in your heart.

Well, it seems I've dug a new pit of discontent.

I sorta had a girl who let me go, and within a couple weeks had "a close friend" come to visit. When a girl uses the word "close", it's generally safe to assume the worst. In this case, it was the dude who broke her heart and disappeared years ago. I find it really hard to believe it was coincidence that it happened right after she decided I wasn't worth waiting for. Strangely, having broken up with a great girl for an ex that had broken my heart, I understand and feel like I deserve this. If it is coincidence though, then shit isn't cool, I guess. She wanted me to "compromise" by quitting my band and leaving everything I know to go live in a town I'm not really wild about. She'd have let me live really cheap with her, but I hardly find that a compromise. I also feel like if I'd done all that, she'd have found a way to get rid of me when this butthole came back around anyway. There's a lot more that I won't go into. Long story short, I believe she went out of her way to convince me I didn't really like her that much anyway.

I was able to keep my chin up because the one girl I like that lives in town had been showing me some attention. I decided to be bold and test the water, and yeah, "she's just not that into me", as is said to make somebody feel better. She makes a damn good friend though. I'm sure she wasn't trying to lead me on, but a confident man is supposed to get out and get what he wants, right?

So yeah, readers, I'm unhappy again, so I'll be writing plenty of sarcastic, angry shit you'll laugh about. At least until I get my puppy. Then nothing will ever bother me again.